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i have nothing to say anymore.

so i just returned home from the party i was supposed to go to on friday that got moved to tonight. and i drank a lot. but didn’t get the slightest bit drunk. i think that must mean that i have built up a ridiculously high alcohol tolerance… and i also think […]

ok, i’m not going to see star wars instead of going to the party tonight. i now have nothing to do. ah, the life of a 22-year-old girl… it’s so glamorous.

ok, i’m not going to a party tonight. so i’m going to see star wars instead. i somehow find it sort of sad that the only movies i ever actually go and see are the gigantic summer blockbusters.

i’m going to a party tonight. it’s a cast party for a play i wasn’t in, but i know the director and he sent me a card yesterday asking me to come by. so i’m going. i hope there aren’t a bunch of pretentious arty people around (i like arty people… i […]

just for the record:
simultaneously drinking warm diet coke from a 20-oz. bottle, sneezing, and coughing is not a good time. especially while wearing a white sweater.
and that is all.

that conversation i had with my mother last night is still nagging me. i hate when things like that happen. i’m going to be mulling this one over for days, i have a feeling. thanks, mom. thanks a lot.

last night my mother and i had a discussion about love. it managed to be both horrible and depressing. so that was fun.
i can’t help the fact that i hate the idea of losing myself to another person. or finding myself through losing myself to another person. or whatever it is […]

my life as of right now:
listening: no show radio, “soulsmith” (yay, wes! now finish the cd.)
feeling: lethargic.
reading: zen buddhism essays by d.t. suzuki.
wanting: another cigarette.
wondering: if i made someone think i was a horrible person by telling the whole story. why boys have to be such heinous geeks.
waiting: for the weekend.
wanting: a nap. […]

i was on t.v. today.
ok, yeah… so it was local cable and all of 12 people will see it…but still. it was kind of a lame experience, but i suppose that if i leave out any and all truth about the matter i can make it sound cool: “yeah hey, i was on […]