Dec 12 2003
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observations from today, or, things i feel like saying just because i have nothing better to do
1. ever have one of those moments (or hours or days or weeks or months or lives, for that matter) where you just feel like falling to your knees in agony and despair, raising your fist and shaking it at the sky, shouting “oh holy god in heaven what have i ever done to make you hate me like you do? why, god? whyyyyyyyyy?!?!?!?” but then you don’t do it because you realize that would just be both egotistical and pointless, as god is too busy with important things to muster up enough recognition to even hate you?
i don’t. i was just asking.
2. when you feel as though one more minute in your home would cause you to go crazy, it is still not a good idea to get all bundled up and go for a walk in the snow. why? because it’s cold outside, you silly person, you.
3. even though my current site design might cause you to believe differently, i am completely ignoring the fact that christmas is happening this year. i’ve decided to have my own holiday called “thursday” and i will observe it by doing whatever it is that i do on thursdays. which is, i suspect, nothing. thursday. what a weird word.
4. i started working on my novel again. two days later, i quit working on my novel again. why, you are not asking at all but i will pretend that you are for rhetorical purposes? well, i hate writing, that’s why.
5. i had a realization today, and that is quite simply this: introspection is really bad for your health, because it makes you suicidal.
that’s enough. i’m gonna go chain smoke and wonder why i gave up alcoholism now.
