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Ah, what a year. I don’t even know what else to say about it other than what I already said, which is “ah, what a year.” So, whatever, let’s just do this.

Work
The first quarter of the year was filled with head-explodingly awesomeness at my place of employment, the kind that made me cry a little bit every morning when I had to get up and get dressed. And then the second quarter was fun for different reasons of awesome awesomeness, but then by July things had kind of settled down and even though I really wish someone could just pay me to sit around in pajamas and say snarky things to my television while eating Cheez Its and getting slobbered on my dog, I realize this is probably never going to happen, and if that dream won’t come true, then at least I’m working at a place where I like and respect everyone in my office. So there’s that.

Family
My grandmother has long been one of the biggest superstars in my life, but I came to realize exactly how much she is a total superstar this year when she was diagnosed with breast cancer in July. Though there have been a couple of scares this year, she’s doing well right now, and though she didn’t say anything on Thanksgiving which made me think that perhaps she had given up her quest to see me married off to a suitable young man so I can start having babies because I’m not getting any younger you know, she did not disappoint on Christmas. I appeared at her house wearing a new hat — a turquoise baseball cap with a blingy horseshoe on it (just as awesome as it sounds, really) — and I wear baseball caps pulled low because I am so fucking cool. And mysterious. And did I mention that I’m so fucking cool? Anyway, we had the following conversation:

Grandma: You should push your hat up higher on your forehead so we can see you.
Me: No.
Grandma: Now, you can’t catch a boyfriend if nobody can see your eyes.
Me: Well, I’m not trying to catch a boyfriend. I’m related to everyone in this house, and that would be creepy and gross.

So anyway, she hasn’t given up on me. I’m not sure if that’s nice of her or if it’s just sad.

Love
Speaking of, I suppose…

If anyone ever was just nice to me without turning out to be a total sociopath a short time later, I swear I would die from shock. Which means, hey, bring it, sociopaths! I wanna LIVE!

Health
I’m doing okay; I think this has been a record year for getting death plagues, but I haven’t died a single time, so I think that’s probably a positive thing. I guess. Right now I’m on an antibiotic that has two warnings on the label:

1. Drink plenty of water while taking this medication. (There is no danger of me not drinking plenty of water — I’m practically dehydrated. Who knew that I could miss saliva?)
2. Avoid direct natural or artifical sunlight while taking this medication. (Buh?)

I’ve been consuming about eight liters of water a day, yet I am still like a human desert. But I’ll be done with the antibiotic in a week and then I’m hoping that it will no longer hurt to blink.

Creativity
Well, I’ve shot a lot of photographs this year. More than 10,000 on my main camera and at least a few hundred on various others. I’ve only processed a small percentage of all of those, but still, I’ve gotten a lot of shooting done. And though I thought I’d hung it up over a year ago, I’ve been writing again. I have a few things on tap that I might even be cautiously proud of (though I’m a really tough judge of my writing), but I need to go over them a few more times and make sure they’re honest, which is, of course, different than being true. At some point, I think I’ll need a merciless critic to get me out of my own head. Not just yet, but soon.

In Conclusion
It definitely hasn’t been a year that I’d want to cut out and hang on the refrigerator, but it’s almost over, so there’s that. It wasn’t the year when I figured out what I should be doing with my life, or the year I finally fell in love, or the year I received a large inheritance from a heretofore-unknown relative and moved to Fiji, but there’s time for all of those things, I suppose. (Especially that Fiji bit, because really, anytime would be the right time for that.) In the meantime, it’s not great, but it’s okay, and for now, I’ll take it.

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